Dear Lim Tai Rong, I know you might not be even reading this, but I supposed this may be the only way for myself to express what is hidden in my heart, the deepest feeling hidden in and yet can't be expressed.. Friday 28.2.14 This is the day that marked the full-stop of our 8-months plus relationship. You have found a photo of me with yijin during our HK trip in July 2013. Yep, I was still with him.. indeed.. you may have guessed correctly.. I was in a relationship with you and him same time.. Sorry to have to end it this way.. I can't help myself from saying sorry .. can't help from stopping tears dropping out.. can't stop blaming myself for all these mistakes done.. I have trusted my feeling to go onto this relationship with you.. its the love that has connected both you and me, bringing us happiness. Merely a gut feeling to start a relationship with you.. believing that things will turn out good.. Life has been meaningful and completed with happiness with you by my side everyday. But I've just learnt that I can't have both.. I know you must have think that how could I do things that hurt you when I love you so much.. :/ I'm sorry that I don't have the answer for your question.. I think I'm just selfish.. I'm just so afraid to lose you both.. I do not know you deep.. but i know him deep well.. I always hope that I can have longer time to know you better.. to find out if we could have a future together.. or it is just merely short easy-come-easy-go relationship.. but I guess from today onward.. we do not have chance to talk or meet anymore.. I just want to say I'm sorry.. if time can be reversed.. I supposed it might not have to end it this way.. =/ how i felt deep inside is in fact cant be expressed in words.. the song 其实很爱你 may have just expressed what I want to say.. May your life without the evil me be happily ever after..

1月24号

1. I guess everything went well since our last meet. HAHA.. at least I hope so.. =)
2. Still, I like to share news with you.. just ring you to talk about wat happen.. haha.. and for no reason I'll just instinctively call you whenever I wan to share...
3. There is something between you and me.. that I should have bring up to you.. mention to you earlier when we met.. but i did not..

that is..

the complication between you and me in the past happened because of feelings.. and feelings will never lie.. however, it does make things complicated.. and when thing get complicated .. it will be hard to resolve.. Not sure should I just leave it as it where is.. and i feel terribly sorry for the complication.. because there was a period of time.. where the feeling was real.. and was hard to let go.. haha.. might not be meaningful to tell you this now...

Tat's all bah..

新年新愿望

it's 2011. A new year with new hope~

I'm currently working as a property manager in a property firm. Works is tough and with great challenge. I hope I can overcome all the obstacles in front of me and live it up!

Okay tat's all for work. Now want to make a sincere wish.. hope that 某某人 will forgive everything i did in the past. I may have lied partially, but, there are certain parts that are real and will remain as they are.. i.e you are a great friend of mine!

I'm sorry for what I did.. but i hope you will forgive me..

Awwww...

*wrote this is deep guilt and sorry for everything I did..*

Getting stressful everyday~

LOL. I guess the title tells all about my daily life.

Unbelievable. I slept before 8pm last night. Watch PPS until i fell asleep. HAHAHA.. my sis reached home and drag me back to bedroom. Was too tired le.. the eyes just no long in control.. the next time i woke up was 6am in the morning. HAHAHA~ Thanks to my sis who set the alarm for me.. or else i think i will continue to sleep until 8? or may 9~ =D

Many ppl fell sick recently. I HOPE YOU ARE NOT OF THEM! my colleague told me her daughter was having high fever and doctor suspects its H1N1 again. The number of cases increase everyday. Let's keep our finger cross and hope it is not H1N1. because I wanna go travelling in 3 weeks time.. and I do wish to be quarantined! =P Let's just hope that it is just due to hot weather..

Talking about the hot weather.. It is really UNBEARABLE. LOL. Don't feel like walking on the streets.. Don't feel like stepping out of the office.. (THat's Y i stay till so late.. o.O" and I'm still in office now)

Anyway, recently workloads is getting heavier.. and they are involving me in a lot projects.. >.< Not sure that is a good news or not.. Well.. I guess i wanna quit soon.. =/ TO BE CONFIRMED.

未来不知道会是怎样 那就继续鼓励自己继续撑下去 ！！
好歌和你分享一下咯！

这叫爱　——　BY2

愛　它來去沒預兆
像感冒　總無法預料
why　連呼吸都難熬
難道是我發高燒　好不了

＊Every time I Look Into Your Eyes
　那心跳的律動　總對不上節拍
　他們說這叫愛
　Every time I Look Into Your Eyes
　太多　心裡話　怎麼　說不出來
　煩惱都隨著你搖擺　愛你成依賴＊

還　寫著給你的歌
拼湊著　每一篇快樂
怪　竟是　模糊　音色
難道是我發高燒　怎麼了

Repeat＊

放不開 不明白這是
愛得太早　還是太快

Repeat＊

你最近还好吗 - SHE

你最近还好吗 - SHE
作词：姚若龙 作曲：林迈可

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候令陌生人都还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

其实很爱你 - 张韵涵

其实很爱你
演唱:张韵涵
张韶涵-其实很爱你

离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留

Haha.. I posted one song and in exchange I saw many many songs from mou mou ren~
太不甘愿了！ haha~ must post a few more~!!

Anyway, 虽然没什么好结果 可是跟你在一起的时候就是那种说不出的开心和甜蜜
不管了 反正想起你的时候 还是很好笑的~

我很想愛他 - Twins

歌名: 我很想愛他
演唱: Twins
附註:
作曲: 林俊傑
編曲: Mickey Chen
填詞: 何啟弘

天空下起雨了
他撐的傘在你身邊陪著
可是我不快樂
因為看見他臉上的笑　是很勉強的

＊我很想愛他　但是眼睛在說謊
　隱瞞比較容易吧
　免得感情變的複雜

　我很想愛他　但是理智在吵架
　退出可以解圍嗎
　誰能給我一個好的回答＊

愛情是模糊的
可憐的是沒有勇氣選擇
如果再捨不得
這樣下去我們每個人　都是受害者

REPEAT＊

當愛情陷在危險邊緣
是否都會傷痕累累
是否都會苦不堪言

REPEAT＊＊

愛情教會我們都放不下


好听的歌就要分享一下咯
It might be a good indicator? Haha.. Don't know how to decide sia.. 可是完全表达我的心声了！

说不出来得话
还有比歌词来更好的吗？
希望你都看到这个post :D

小病一场

哈哈！ 昨天早上起来觉得头昏昏沉沉的， 喉咙也觉得干渴
就决定不上班了 赶快SMS SILVIA 告假一天
sms 完就倒下去再睡了

醒来后 还是得去看医生拿MC
就跟医生说我喉咙痛
结果他开了药给我吃 给了我一天的MC (好想他给我两天的病假！！)

anyway, it's just a small matter. Altho my throat is still feeling itchy but I can feel it's recovering. =) Most importantly, i get my rest yesterday! Something that i need badly!! lol recently just keep feeling sleepy and tired at home and at work. Coffee doesnt help le. Tat's y... >.< i think a good rest should be suffice.

I think I need a long break.. wanna go for a trip.. but i have no time to find out the air fares and accommodation. >.< Hope i wont end up just resting at home ! >.<

Anyway, Now is May le.. worried for him lei.. Dunno how's his revision going on. Just want him to know I'm there to support! 要加油喔！ LOL. Can't really help him much other than offer him a sweet talk ^^

我想你 *wink*

温岚- 祝我生日快乐

祝我生日快乐 - 温岚

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难,想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐



今年的生日不过的怎么样， 只有简简单单的和家人吃顿饭
和妈妈一起过生日 + 母亲节
不知道为什么 好像觉得生活少了些什么
生日当天的12点钟 我为自己许下了愿望
当天心理来来去去只有这首伤心的歌 一直在飘荡在耳边
谢谢你们的生日祝福 虽然远在马来西亚 可是还是收到了 :D
哈哈 也许没有缘分吧？没缘和你一起过生日
too bad~


**** 有你在的那种感觉很舒服， 很开心的。可是， 没人知道结局会是怎样。很怕， 今天的开心， 换来的只是明天的心酸 **** well, ... 和我想的一模一样~

There's something to readabout~

WOoohOooo...

It's april.. and someone's blog is revived! =D after so many days and so many months!
LOL. I enjoyed reading his blog.. Ha nah.. i enjoy reading other friends' blogs too.. =) But i HATE update my own blog Ohh...

Hopefully, he will update his blog regularly. =) I'm kinda busy.. Adeline is away for course for three months..and I need to cover some of her works.. AWWWWW! >.< Hardly reach home before 6 nowadays.. and I'm always in "Tired" mode. =x

Anyway, I will try to update my blog regularly. =)

真的只是巧合吗？

你相信心灵相通吗？

并不是不可能 只是机会很偶然

还需要双方长年累积的默契

还真不容易的

心理没说出来的 某某人却已经知道和明白了

某某人想做的事或心理的某个念头

不用说出来就已经能体会和了解

真的只是巧合吗？ 一直藏在我心里的 都被你发现了

并没想过会让你发现 太神奇了， 也太令我惊讶！

也不是认识太久 可是就常被你发现心中的话

是天意 还是巧合

真想有一天能真正和你坐在vivo 的 sushi tei

一边看海 一边吃sushi

感觉一定很棒很赞！！ :D

很希望那一天的来临

希望那天来临的时候， 我们没有怨恨的遗憾

只有开心的叙旧 和傻傻的淡笑

应该会是这样的吧 ~



*某某人 我还是很shock 因为你让你妈妈偷看了我的blog . . . . 没有privacy lei!!

不会萌芽的感觉

有些感觉，能留住当然很好

不能留住，勉强也只不过是强人所难

虽说，不能留住 伤害往往比较少

重来的话 还是很纵容自己去尝试

想到了 可我做不到 心里很酸了

为了不能萌芽的感觉而感到遗憾

是我的自私和畏怯

也许不让它萌芽 会对你和我更好

没结果的 就让它随风飘去

不为什么 就是要你为自己好好活下去

希望 将来你想起我的时候 脸上是带着笑容的

那时因为我们曾经很开心，很甜的聊过

感觉虽是触摸不了， 可也不容易擦去

Sharing~

I'm not a anime fans. LOL. but recently addicted to this anime call 棋魂/棋灵王. Now almost at the end of the anime, feel really sad sia. My favourite character "Sai" gonna disappear le. >.<>

NOt bad bah? Looks cool rite? HEHE~ guys might find it gay tho. =P that's wat my dearie housemate said. =P Just finished watching episode 60, where my handsome Sai disappear. SO HEARTBREAKING!! Urrgh!

One more shuai ge to share yi xia.. I've got a new comp. Erm.. to be precise not my comp la. But I'm using it most of the time.. (Muz clarify yi xia one.. coz mou mou ren will laugh there...F3..) Hehe. Has been playing a new PC game call " the last remnant, 最后的遗迹" hehe.. let me show you the picture of this handsome shuaige~

Well, he is not the main character in the game. But he is a young king of a small "town" called Athlum. =D His name is David Nassau. Anyway it's a RPG game, something similar to Final Fantasy. So most of the time he is in my party. So cool rite~? =P I think he is more handsome than the main character, Rush Sykes. =P

Let's see some of the picture of Rush.

Looks quite cool rite? Aiih this is the "poster image" nia. =x in game, he is not tat handsome one. quite different from the poster. =P LOL. But some ppl still like Rush better. Quite hard to find a in-game picture of Rush. lol.

Hehe.. tat's all for now. =P

新歌哦！

画沙 - 周杰伦&袁咏琳

作词：方文山 作曲：袁咏琳

午后的风摇晃枝椏 抖落了盛夏
我对著蝉认真说话 在对你牵卦
晚风轻敲著海沙 浪堆积起无暇
我跟纯真在比傻 爱上你放不下
这风景如画 （开满凤凰凤凰花）
院子裡花洒 （浇灌著那种情话）
等最美的晚霞 等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你呀 曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗 因為大声说爱你而沙哑
用手中流沙轻描著你的脸颊 也答应说好的未来绝不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿 因為我爱你呀

将思念压成花 有你的记忆乾燥成瓶中沙
像沙漏般想著你滴滴达达
擦美美的趾甲 喝你泡的茶 原来幸福可以这麼优雅

不论多大风沙 路多分岔 我一样找到你呀
管它风怎麼颳 管雨又怎麼下 越痛我就越来（越瀟洒）
不摘不属於自（己的花） 喔爱闪著泪光為你我可以当傻瓜

这风景如画 （开满凤凰凤凰花）
院子裡花洒 （浇灌著那种情话）
等我们的童话 等誓言落下

用手中的流沙画一个你呀 曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗 因為大声说爱你而沙哑
用手中流沙轻描著你的脸颊 也答应说好的未来绝不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿 因為我爱你呀

用手中的流沙画一个你呀 曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗 因為大声说爱你而沙哑
用手中流沙轻描著你的脸颊 也答应说好的未来绝不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿 因為我爱你呀 因為我爱你呀

我的新枕头

我超喜欢我的新枕头噢！！！ 非常非常的舒服neh！！

Haha. I've just bought a new pillow yesterday! SO so so excited about it.. and it is very comfortable! Ladies, do remember hoh, beauty sleep begins with a good pillows and a good mattress. Mattress I can't afford, so I get a new pillow first norh. This morning almost can't wake up. TOO COMFY!! just don't wan to wake up >.<

I was so excited about it yesterday that I keep share this piece of news to friends around me. LOL. well.. They are like sian diao lor... So unsupportive. =/ HAHAHA.. previously was using the seahorse's pillow.. for a year plus le. It's comfy too.. but too tall. sometimes when i woke up, will get a neckache. I JUST LOVE MY PILLOW NOW. Was hugging it whole nite b4 i go to bed ytd. =D

Time for a change

New look on my blog! wonder how many people are still following my blog. Haha.. hope you will feel refreshing to visit my blog again.

I've been like browsing through all the templates from the internet in the past 2 hours. LOL. Have been trying a lot templates too, just want to make sure everything fit. Haha.. and finally found this cute baby template. Please don't comment that it's too kiddish okay.. will feel hurts. Initially wanted something more elegant and simple, something without too much drawing .. but it doesnt fit well. Awww.. either the heading were missing or the date is missing.. or some error .. So.. this is the best that i can find.


Firstly, some updates on my status. Working now in Norwegian bank for a contract term of 9 months. Thanks sweetie Mel for helping me to get the job. Most of the time I'm working with a lots of papers, and files.. Hahaha.. and don't be surprised if you see me standing in front of the copier for more than 30mins. LOL. Job scope wise is bit dry but still find it manageable. Sorry to upset u Daniel, I think I'm still having a good time working there.

Haven't go for swimming for quite a long period of time. Haha. Slack! plus no time la.. Busy working mah. Usually weekend is my resting time. Uuuhh... Please dun torture me and let me sleep gao gao on weekend!


The second thing is, yep, i'm receiving a lot of sms from Nic, but please, we are as clean as blank paper. HAHAHA.. so mai spread rumours please! Grrrr.. we aren't that close hoh. Enough of the jokes or else i will get nightmare hoh..

I'm still mapler, but you might not find me in aquila. Haha,I hop to Hercules le. In case you are not aware of, I have a level 138 Bishop there. LOL. having a lot of fun and meeting some new friends there and Nic is one of them. Sometimes, really don't understand why I keep bumped into some 烂桃花. Haha.. Sorry if its too mean. BUT... BUT... BUT.. these 烂桃花s annoyed me LOL. As much as I wanna enjoy myself in the game.. jokes around.. fools around.. bully ppl around.. but somehow, Nic take it so serious that I had to be serious too.. it kinda make me moody.. it's not the way i want it.

Anyway, hope he just cheer up and live on. Nothing much that I can do... nothing much that I would like to do too. Haha.. i enjoy my life now. How about u? UPDATES k! good luck for friends who are taking A lvl and O lvl tis year! I smell exam stress here.. :) Also, good luck to those who are going into army ~ :)

某某人，希望你考试顺利 ~　加油啊！　

*Cough Cough!!*

Ewwwww.... I'm sick again.. has just recover from flu n running nose 2 weeks ago.. =/ now come the cough.. =)

Has been feeling dizzy whole day.. just feel like keep sleeping.. but I don't think it's a good idea tho.. =) the more i sleep.. the more dizzy i get... =/

anyway.. still watching my drama.. =D gonna rest and drink plenty of water today.. =) lol.. i sometimes feel tat it's a karma.. haha.. has been asking mou mou ren to drink more water and stay healthy these few days.. now its my turn le.. >.<

the cough just come so suddenly.. SIGH! Please go away!!!

a Term that represents the Term... so? o.O""

Hahaha.... I like the title of the blog.. its quotation of the day... quoted from mou mou ren! =D

Yesterday is an exciting day.. =) First went out with my sister for lunch and have a light shopping .. but we bought like SGD 200 worth of clothes.. WOOOOTsss... I guess its not that light.. =x but havent fun putting the clothes on in fitting room. xD

reached home at 4 plus.. took a shower and prepare to second round of shopping at vivo >.< Haha.. didn't bought tat much in vivo.. but money spend on dinner + dessert + supper ~ =D lol There is this little shop at lvl 1 of vivo, near hang ten there.. awfully chocholate shop.. we went there for dessert.. my fren say it's very nice.. and indeed very NICE.. very rich in Chocolate Ohh.. if you love chocolate..you should realli try it.. but personally i still prefer hagan daaz..

There is one more thing about this shop... =D There are 2 CHIOBUs serving there hoh! only two service staff and both are so so so CHIO!!! Please go n take a look hoh!! lol .. According to Daniel who went with us, WORTH eating ice cream there because of the two chiobu .. Hahaha =D

Lol.. came home very late.. 11 plus then reached home.. went in maple and saw someone gave me a surprise ohh! lol... i passed berserk bk 3 Ohh~~ =D hehe!! after log off .. have a long sweet talk with Mou mou ren.. haha.. I shall not disclose his identity here.. the mou mou ren will know who he is la.. =) so obvious le. =D See the title jiu know le.. =D

某某人，希望你早日康复！Stay healthy and take care yourself ohh!

GRRRrrr!!

Aiyerrr!! This is killing me sia!!! lol Having a hard time to change the blog template.. lol.. so give up le.. >.<

Today, my boss called, tell me that all the shift this week will be canceled. STUN! woots.. suddenly work 1 week and rest 1 week.. =.='' lol.. is it realli ok? Haha, he say nx week will continue my shift... hmmm ... hopefully he will call me up again in these few days..

Well, today has been a tired day.. woke up early.. went swimming, then come home feel so tired. Feel like taking a nap, but i didn't.. lol.. end up watching drama non stop.. hmm.. wtch le 6 episode.. >.< woots!

But I took my breakfast, lunch regularly today~ =D n I have my banana today! =P lol.. going dinner soon le.. =)

最近，每次静下来，心里反反复复都出现你说的每句话。想你啊！ *wink*

The new born waitress..

It has been 3 days working in a restaurant, and I'm very happy today! =D i mean last nite (woots! its over 12 now) A lot people come visit me today! =D First visit by Alex, Andy, and KJ.. they dropped by for dinner after their work >.< so touching!! .. Then Mel, Daniel, Yan, and MK lol purposely come to visit and disturb me ... haha... last but not least, my sis and YJ came for late dinner and pick me up to go home together .. you both are so great!! I don't need to travel home alone today... Haha, it's realli glad to see friends visit lol.. =D too bad.. i tot my boss gonna give u guys 10% discount.. but apparently he didn't.. I supposed it is kind of a busy day.. (woots, i mean ytd).. lol.. don't really have time to speak to you all much..=/ Dunno why today there are a lot of customer.. and dunno why I was at the pantry making drinks most of the time.. lolol.. i guess it's fated..

In the past 2 days, things were not that good.. lol.. I "sort of" made a lot of mistakes.. especially in the first day.. cant remember so many things la.. =x lol .. and really relieved that I'm allow to use 2 hand to hold the tray when serving dishes.. lol .. the plates and bowl are really heavy.. there are few times where i almost break some glasses.. hahaha.. coz the trays are very slippery.. *wonder will my salary deducted if i break some glasses or bowl or plates..* havent really try before.. but hopefully it wont happen.. then i also always mix up the table number ... lol.. and that 某某人 keep laugh at me summore lor.. >.< lol .. but its ok.. juz need some time to remember the table number well.. hahaha.. and not forgetting the pork/beef too..

Lol, everyday before i go to work, sort of get use to receive some confident booster from 某某人 . lol .. reminding me a lot of things.. =) he wanna make sure I will not make similar mistakes again and again.. haha.. lol anyway, I'm still new there.. more things to learn and also more things to beware of.. =/ It's very sweet of him to give some mental support everyday to make sure you are fine and alright.. =) anyway, it just feel so good to have him beside to share everyday sweet and bitter.. He is just the guy who laughs and make you laugh too =D

虽然我的STM还挺严重的， 可是你说过的话我都会牢牢的记得。谢谢你，一直在我身边支持着我哦！只希望你每天也过的开开心心的！